Hi! I’m Bailey. I’ve started blogs on and off for about the past three years. This one, though, is going to be much different from the rest. My old blogs- those were all about me. This blog is all about my God.
I’ve been struggling lately with reading my bible and studying His word. I’ve been caught up in school, friends, and (if I’m being completely honest) Netflix. Those things are all fine and dandy and all, but not when they keep me from more important things- THE most important thing.
In the past few weeks I’ve dug myself into a sort of spiritual hole. I stopped doing my daily bible studies and progressively felt worse about doing so. Since I felt bad about not doing them, I avoided doing them more. I’m not sure why. Did I think God was mad at me? I looked through some of my favorite verses today and here’s what I found.
“Even now,” declares the Lord, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning.” Joel 2:12
Even now. Those words always stick out to me as so beautiful.
I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you. Isaiah 44:22
I’m a sinner. We’re all sinners. I am a sinner. By not focusing on God, I’m sinning. I constantly sin when I put small, meaningless things ahead of Him. When I choose to watch Grey’s Anatomy instead of reading my bible that day, I’m sinning. I know this but I do it anyways. Even though I constantly sin, God constantly forgives.
The fact is, God just wants me to come back to Him. No matter how far we stray, God always wants us to come back to him. Whether you haven’t picked your bible up in weeks or decades- God just wants you to come back to him. When I get to these points, I always like to think about the story of the prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32) and how the father rejoiced at the sight of his son returning home.
But we had to celebrate and be glad because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found. Luke 15:32
The son didn’t expect this welcome- he didn’t deserve this welcome. We don’t deserve that welcome.
I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men. Luke 15:19
I am not worthy to be considered a child of God, but I don’t have to be. I forget this a lot. In this world we’re supposed to earn everything, but we don’t have to earn God’s love. We can’t earn God’s love. Thank goodness. He loves us when we don’t deserve it. He just wants us to come home.
So that’s what I’m trying to do right now. That’s the purpose for this blog. To help document my growing relationship with my perfect God and to share it with anyone who might want to read it. I’m excited to see what comes from this little blog adventure.